In January of this year, Glenn Beck, the conservative radio and television host, stated on his radio show that if anyone within the sound of his voice hated a gay person, they could not be a fan of his or have a friend anywhere on his show. Mr. Beck is a Christian, a Mormon, and professes to believe the Bible and follow its precepts. If that’s true, I’d like to share the following with Mr. Beck and other alleged Christian defenders of homosexuality.
I am an Ex Homosexual, Ex Lesbian, Ex Queer, Ex Gay who is extremely grateful to Glenn Beck for inspiring me to leave homosexuality. I lived my entire adult life as an out, active, atheist lesbian. My personal redemption story began in 2009. In a dark, empty movie theatre on the west coast, I watched Glenn Beck act out his autobiographical “The Christmas Sweater.” In the depths of his alcoholism, drug addiction, depression, and suicide, Beck had a dream in which Jesus Christ appeared to him, forgave him, and freed him from addiction and suicide. This was before he chose to become a Mormon. I knew in that instant that if Jesus Christ could free Glenn Beck from alcoholism, drug addiction, and suicide, Jesus Christ could deliver me from homosexuality. I asked Jesus to come into my heart and forgive me and He did. I was freed immediately from any and all desire or temptation to continue in the homosexual life and filled with a passion to tell the truth about homosexuality.
I was not born a homosexual. I was not “born that way.” There is no scientific proof, or proof of any kind, that there is a homosexual gene or that homosexuals are “born that way.” I was sexually molested at the age of 2 and I began making choices at that age that lead to a life of homosexuality. I chose that life and I clung desperately to the lie that I was “born that way” so I would never be held accountable for my choices. This is what every sinner wants. I was a permanent, perpetual victim who demanded to be placed in a special, blameless category of sin. I was “constitutionally incapable of being honest with myself” and as America became increasingly atheist and hedonist, I received more and more permission to practice my special sin of choice.
The secular counseling world, especially, which I sought out to combat addiction, depression, and suicide, demanded that I believe I was born that way and that I just accept and love myself more and better. But even passionate, powerful defenders of homosexuality cannot remove the consequences of sin. In my heart of hearts, where God resides, I knew what I was doing and how I was living were wrong and I could not escape my shame and guilt and pain. Glenn Beck admitted his sin of addiction and Jesus Christ forgave and healed him. God used Glenn Beck to reach me. When I asked, Jesus Christ forgave and freed me from my sin of homosexuality. I pray that Glenn Beck and other alleged Christian defenders of homosexuality can hear the truth now.
Satan is the Father of Lies and he attacks every child. We are all born children of God; we are all attacked by Satan; and we are all sinners. The only thing special about the sin of homosexuality is the audacity and persistence of the lie defending it. If you love the homosexuals in your life, stop defending their sin. God loves them and God will forgive them, if they turn to Him and ask. Help them believe that He will forgive them. Help them reach out for His forgiveness and love. Love their souls instead of their sin. Pray for their redemption. I am an Ex Homosexual today through the prayers of those who truly loved me, the grace of God, and the power of Jesus Christ, praise God. The homosexuals you love deserve redemption too.
Robin Goodspeed is an Ex-Lesbian and an Advisory Board member of Voice of the Voiceless
